Isn't his outfit precious! Uncle Bobby and I bought him that on our anniversary trip to Hawaii in March and it fits him perfectly and just in time for his 1st birthday. I'm going to use a picture I took last night to make his birthday invitations. Hopefully I can post them for you guys to see once I finally get them made!Also just wanted to welcome my new followers! I've 3 in the last 2 days join! Thanks for tagging along guys! I love the company. Be sure to leave me a comment so I can check out your blog.
Ok. Not to extend this into a long sappy post but I'm having mama drama fears. I mentioned yesterday that a few of my friends are getting ready to start having babies and I'm sure my sister will be trying again for her second soon. I know that I'm still not ready and I've always wanted to wait until I was closer to 30 before having kids -- which is what my aunt and stepmom did and I think it worked perfectly. But, here's the thing...I've had so many people telling me lately that they can't imagine me not living in the city and having a baby on my hip. I've always had this fear to have kids simply because I'm afraid I won't be a good mom. It has nothing to do with kids -- I love kids -- it only has to do with the fact that I'm terrified to raise screwed up kids and release them into society. What I'm hearing only scares me more. Yeah, I absolutely love living in the city and, in my opinion, there are several places in Houston that are perfectly acceptable to raise kids -- granted, I'll have to win the lottery to be able to afford those areas. I don't feel like there is anything wrong with me taking my time, enjoying my husband and being completely selfish right now because once kids come that's all over. I guess I had a friend say something the other night and I can't stop thinking about it. I'm not a super sensitive person and I rarely get my feelings hurt but that stung a little. I guess it's because I've always had this fear and then it's almost like it was just confirmed.
Luckily, my family is pretty understanding and they don't press us too hard to have babies. I have a wonderful family and while I know they are all ready, they know I'm not. So, here's to hoping I grow into being mommy-material at some point...
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the kid thing - Oh the kid thing. I think no matter where you live, that fear of raising screwed up kids is always going to be there. I am not ready for kids yet but I know within the next 3-5 years I will be and that IS my biggest fear. How can I be in charge of another human life? BUT, luckily, you won't be doing it alone and I think I have learned that kids are going to be who they want to be. My brothers and I are all completely different and we were all raised 100% the same... I am sure you will be a GREAT mom when you are ready
Don't feel bad...I know I'm WAY too selfish right now to have kids. Plus I want to travel and get out of debt first! BUT at the same time, I don't want to have kids well into my thirties...so that basically means we will have one kid, when I'm 30. If Vince wants more, than we'll just have to adopt, lol!
Oh my gosh, he is soooo cute!
I have the same fears my friend. But you have to do whats RIGHT for YOU not them. You'll know when the time is right :)
What a stud!
Okay, about children, Jon and I are definitely waiting to have children. We want to enjoy each other and be selfish, there is nothing wrong with that! You are still young and a lot of people are waiting to have children until they are a little older. So no worries! Take your time, you'll know when you're ready ;)
I think you will know when the time is right. Some day you will make a great Mommy!
Until then, spend lots of time with your nephew, he is way too cute!
He is so stinkin' cute!!
In my early 20's I thought I'd start the baby game when I was 25 or 26. Now I'm 28 and thinking I still need a few years, so it's looking like 30 or 31 for me, which kind of freaks me out.
It's good that I get to see my neices and nephews a few times a year so I can experience the fun of kids, but don't have to be too responsible. :)
I'm sure that when the time is right everything will work out just fine.
I understand your fears! my B and I really don't want them at all, but when we do discuss the possibility, I get totally freaked out! I think that's just a sign that you're not ready yet! Once the fears turn into a yearning to be a mom, then you'll know you're ready. And I'm sure you'd be wonderful!
Can I just say how proud I am of how often you are blogging lately? :)
And he (Jeremiah?) is so stinkin cute! That little outfit is too perfect!
Don't worry about not having a baby on your hip. You and I can buy a cute new belt for our hips instead.
Just found your blog! Love it, will be back.
Great blog, cute nephew! Don't you worry for one second about being a mom. I am 32 with my first baby on the way and played hard through my twenties with no regrets. The switch might not ever go off for you to say "I'm ready" but now that I'm a month away from motherhood...all those fears I had all those years are mysteriously gone.
make that 3 new followers :) and just enjoy this great time in your life with the hubs!!
You're going to be a great mother, just like you're a wonderful wife.
Bobby
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